So Then I Said…

I’ve always been a talker. Sure I’ll have nothing to say from time to time but usually I’m just sticking my foot in my mouth. Ever since I was a kid I have been longwinded. Rightfully or wrongfully, I have a set of iron lungs that just keep spewing dialogue like I know what I’m saying. It’s been that way for a long time and over the years has been pointed out. It’s a pretty common joke in my life and a genuine sentiment that I enjoy good conversation. Sometimes any conversation is nice too. Well, sometimes.

Typically it’s questioned though if I’m not chatting up a light storm about this or that. Since I’m not one to be too quiet especially when something is wrong. Well again, sometimes. Actually I dated a guy who when breaking up with me said the reason being was that I didn’t talk enough. Which was funny at the time but funnier telling my family and friends about it since the story took about twenty minutes to tell.

Every now and then I look forward to the silence. It’s a pretty busy world out there and we often get lost in the shuffle. At least, I get lost. Even though I’m not sharing my misguided adventure with you that’s all I can think about. Spinning my wheels like I think I’m actually going somewhere. It’s hard to get out of that. It’s hard to interrupt a conversation to collect your thoughts. To slow down and assess the situation to see that oh shit, yeah we’re stuck. To see things as they exist and go oh yeah, we’re still stuck but it’s not so bad because we know we’re stuck. Which doesn’t always mean you’re in the same place time after time. You’re not going anywhere if you’re just spinning your wheels looking for a way out. You’re not saying anything if you keep chasing your thoughts with words.

Something I heard when I was growing up was to “pay attention to your commas.” Take a break and look at what you’re saying, at what you’re doing. Pause for a moment and think about where you want to go with this. Not all sentences make sense, not all paragraphs have substance, and not all thoughts are finished but it all creates a story. It’s all apart of the great book of life that each one of has a chapter in. Maybe I talk too much but that’s the way I am and how I like to be. Chatty and sarcastic with a little bit of sass that masks my insecurity just right.

So as I bustle through, lost and in the mood for conversation, I try to pay attention to my commas because we are after all writing a story.

Stay wild.

Photo Credit: This is Pretty Wild


Deliver to the Penthouse, Please

It’s a typical Wednesday afternoon on a rainy Valley day. The end of the month and the end of another work day. I have a short drive home but it feels like a long commute this time. I pull into the driveway and stagger up the steps – shit, I forgot about dinner. It’s been a long enough day and I could probably go without a meal. Of course, tomorrow’s Thursday and the midweek hurdle’s only just been jumped. So I live on the edge and order pizza. There’s lunch too.

Since I couldn’t go back out into the world, I opted for delivery. From a pizza joint that is a block away but the four dollar fee was an easy compromise not to have to leave the house. It took well over the allotted time for the pizza to be delivered but you can’t be too picky. When the buzzer finally rang I was pretty hungry. Maybe not in the best mood to begin with but nonetheless I just wanted my pizza.

She gets to my fourth floor apartment unit and with a displeased expression tells me it’ll be twice what I’m expecting. I scoff politely and tell her what I think it should be. This displeases her even more so and asks me to meet her downstairs. I’m in my pajamas. I slip my shoes on and head down to meet her while she’s phoning in the problem. I’ll spare you the details but apparently someone over there doesn’t know what they’re doing. Her sentiments, not mine. It continues like this for what seems like a ridiculous amount of time and I’m starting to get a little upset. Almost willing to pay double, almost. Then she starts arguing with the person on the phone about what my toppings were.

It’s dragging on and honestly I feel a little bad. The delivery person is giving the other person a hard time and then says “Y’know that broad on [street]”. Yeah, yeah I order a lot of take out. The lady looks at me and half smiles without kindness. So I shrug and say “Sorry, I have a thing about leaving my house. Otherwise I’d go down the street to get my pizza”. Her whole face softens which surprised me. She says “Oh. Is this outside of your comfort zone?” Referring to me standing halfway out the lobby door. With a straight face I said, “yes.” I mean, it wasn’t a huge stretch. Well, gosh this changed everything. She begins to apologize and reassures me that we can go back inside. Everything will be OK she nods as she pushes me back into the lobby.

I have a normal thing about leaving my house in which at the end of a long day – I don’t want to go any where; but the pizza lady didn’t need to know the details of my particular personality disorder.

We make our way upstairs all the while she’s reassuring me and telling the pizza order taking person what the price will be. She’s really nice about it in a full of pity kind of way. We get back and the bill is more reasonable. She lets me know I can still get delivery any time. Which is nice to know but I think I’ll be picking my food up for a while.

Stay wild & stay home.


Photo Credit: This is Pretty Wild


8 Minutes

Today is a nice day, already. In my world there is little to worry about right now. The sun is just peaking through some clouds, making its way into my room. There’s a chill in the air before its warmed up and a breeze that rattles the leaves of all my house plants.

In the world around me, it might be a little different. Well, a lot different. If I needed something to worry about then an easy way to do so is by turning on the news. My fancy smart phone has a quick read news filter in the search menu – I can worry before I’ve even started looking.

It doesn’t take much, you see, since so much has occurred in our world and continues to happen. It’s easy to get lost in the uncertainty  and to struggle seeing what will always remain. When you consider the past, the future may be clouded or clear. Sometimes it starts out one way and ends another. Sometimes you can’t see the sky because the sun is just so bright; other times it’s because of the clouds. Either way, you know it’s there.

All we have is today. Yesterday is over and tomorrow might not come. Rain or shine, still air or storms – we should have shades on and an umbrella in the car for whatever weather we may face. And a good pair of shoes to keep on walking this path.

Stay wild, stay positive.

Photo Credit: Linsen Schuss

Job Hunting, Tools and All

After being unemployed for almost a year having made a career change I landed a decent gig. It’s not the end all, be all but it is finally something in my field. Having spent a small fortune on school I am relieved to be able to apply what I’ve learned, pay my bills, and that all good shit.

That’s not to say I know what I’m doing… Because I don’t. However, these sites and forums actually helped me. Finding a job became my job and I used every bit of advice I could get. A lot of it was bullshit but some of it was pretty worthwhile.


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These are sites and forums that actually helped me and so I really hope that they help you in some way or another.


Resume & Cover Letter – (this was the best information)

r/resumes – Posting my resume here (anonomized) was a great move because it was constructively shit on and the result was a great improvement.


Interviews – (this site was a lifesaver)

r/interviews – “Advice on preparing for job interviews, tips on how to answer various job interview questions, and what to do after the interview is over.”

I also brainstormed the fuck out of my answers. I wrote every possible question I’d been asked before or read about and practiced different responses. I rehearsed that ‘tell us about yourself’ question so much I may have even learned a few new things.


So that’s about it.. Work hard and good luck!


Sunday Side Note: Be Excellent

Happy Sunday to you, another day has passed us and we get ready for another week ahead. So much happens that it is hard to keep up. With every bit of information available it can be tedious to sit down and write a reflective piece on a current event. In all honesty I just like to visit, converse, discuss, and discover.  When I finally sat down to recap the week the first link on the Internet’s front page was this following story about a new anti-bully program. It has taken years of research to find and decisively determine what is an effective method of preventing bullying and resolving it. Scientists, psychologists, and researchers alike have analyzed elementary to secondary students suffering from depression and bullying to make this discovery. This discovery being a new method of intervening, stepping in, and helping.

The program focuses on teaching students of all groups as well as their teachers what bully is, how to intervene, how to help the victim and bully. Ideally, reducing depression and increasing self-esteem which as anyone can agree that both those factors will affect your attitude and actions no matter who you are. The dirty down of Finnish method is something we can all try doing and that is being nice.

Science has come a long way and it has been an exciting week for discoveries as are most weeks on this planet. On the scale of grand discoveries from gravitational waves shaping time and space to methods and models for better behavior we are still on a divine journey. It is certainly a wild trip and while you’re scrolling through emails, stories, and breakthroughs remember your maker and where you have come from, you tiny, created atom you.

In the mean time, let’s be excellent to everyone.

Anti-bullying program focused on bystanders helps the students who need it the most: Study reports on success of model used in Finland

Many K-12 school efforts to reduce bullying have proven not very effective, leading educators to wonder what bullying prevention approach works best. A new study finds one anti-bullying program works extremely well. The study of more than 7,000 students in 77 elementary schools in Finland found that one program greatly benefited the mental health of sixth graders who were bullied the most, significantly improving their self-esteem and reducing their depression.

Source: Anti-bullying program focused on bystanders helps the students who need it the most: Study reports on success of model used in Finland


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